When I found out I was pregnant with my son at 35, I was overwhelmed with a mix of emotions. Excitement, fear, and uncertainty at how I would cope with my mental health and motherhood. My history of Schizoaffective Disorder meant I knew the road ahead wouldn’t be easy, but I was determined to give it my best. Before conceiving, I accessed the NHS Perinatal Mental Health Team, which offers support for women with mental health challenges before, during, and after pregnancy. Dr. Chann, one of their consultants, provided invaluable advice. She reassured me that my health and mental well-being were just as important as the baby’s, which gave me the confidence to manage my condition during pregnancy.
While my journey with mental health and motherhood was far from smooth, the incredible support I received from the perinatal team made all the difference. Early on, they arranged a place for me at the Ribblemere Mother and Baby Unit, providing specialist care soon after the baby’s arrival as I was struggling to cope at home. Unfortunately, my mental health deteriorated rapidly, and I experienced postpartum psychosis—a frightening and isolating condition. I became so unwell that I was referred to the Psychiatric Intensive Care Unit at Chorley Hospital’s Avenham Ward. Being separated from my son for several months while stabilizing on the correct medication was heart-wrenching.
After leaving Avenham Ward, the perinatal team continued to support me and my family. My allocated care coordinator, Helen, visited me at home postpartum to monitor my recovery and provide reassurance. The team also offered excellent support to my husband, who, with the help of our wonderful families, cared for our son whilst I was in hospital. He could call Ribblemere for advice and guidance, which made a huge difference during an immensely challenging time.
I was referred to APP (Action on Postpartum Psychosis), a charity that has been a fantastic source of ongoing support. Their monthly online peer support groups, led by lovely Jocelyn, have been a lifeline, providing understanding and connection with other mums who’ve had similar experiences. APP was also a source of inspiration for My Space offering support on an ongoing basis; for some people although recovery can be fantastic sometimes people’s struggles can be ongoing. Read more on my journey to establishing My Space.
Additionally, Carole, a nursery nurse worker from the perinatal team, visited me at home to help me bond with my baby. Through activities like baby massage and learning to read my baby’s cues, she helped me build confidence and connection. I was also paired with a peer support worker who shared her experiences, offering me hope and empathy during some of my darkest days.
Though my journey with to motherhood was full of hurdles, I’m deeply grateful for the care I received. It’s a testament to the excellent perinatal mental health services available in our Chorley area. I hope my story reassures others that, even in the toughest times, help is out there.
Mental health and motherhood may be challenging, but with the right support, it can also be profoundly rewarding!
